Burn Away The Fear

Burn away the fear.

Burn away the doubts.

Burn away the unworthiness.

So I received some real depressing financial news today.

It’s been no easy task being self-employed this year, but I’ve been successfully holding on for most of 2020.

But the last few weeks have been rough. Life has felt like a string of challenges, disappointments, and bad news… one right after the other.

Today’s bad news around money just felt like getting kicked while I was down. I felt gutted. It seemed like everything I’ve been building & working towards was crumbling like ash in my hands.

Thankfully, I reached out to my business coach for support. And she gave me a great piece of advice: Move. Do something physical. Shake it out. Scream it out if need be. But feel it. Really feel it. Don’t just bypass it. Don’t stuff it down until you can barely breathe anymore.

I got off the phone and thought of a perfect way to release the hell out of my anger and frustration.

“I’m gonna chop the shit out of some wood.”

So I did. I chopped the everliving shit out of that wood.

And there’s only one thing to do when you have a ton of firewood.

Build a fire.

So I did. I built a big ass fire.

On a Wednesday.

In the middle of the day.

Because I wanted to.

Because I needed to.

It was the best therapy I could have asked for.

When I sit around a fire, I always have the sense that it’s not just wood I’m burning. I’m burning away everything that is unessential, everything that isn’t present in this moment, everything that truly doesn’t matter.

For example, how much money I have in the bank account today.

For example, basing my sense of self-worth on that number.

For example, everything that stands in the way of truly living my purpose.

This has been an unbelievably hard year for all of us. I don’t know everyone who will read this, but I can guarantee that you’ve been dealt disappointments, set backs, and heartbreaks in 2020.

You’ve had every reason to give up.

But you didn’t.

This year is a gigantic fucking testament to our strength, determination, and badass warrior spirit.

Remember that when the fear gets loud.

When the voices telling you to give up start speaking, build yourself a fire.

Throw in all your fear, all your doubts, all your unworthiness.

And watch those fuckers burn.